1/10/2007

Lighthouse Family
- If you never say goodbye to the best things in your life, there are things you don't appreciate at all. So it's best that you don't try holding back the tide - are you ever going to be quite satisfied?

If you ever say goodbye, no regrets - I won't ask why. And I wish you all the best luck in the world. Should you ever change your mind holding back the sunshine, are you ever going to be quite satisfied? Postcard from heaven, don't know where you belong. Never find the perfect situation till you know where you're from. -



Prelims have been a joke. Hah seriously, being unprepared is the scariest, most unnerving feeling ever. Ahwell. Everyone's been starting revision on the day before the exam. Haha to some extent, I think I have been too. At least it's almost the end of the first week, we're all exhausted - can't wait for the weekends.

I can't get over how much everything's changed. Haha sec1 seems so long ago, everyone's sec4 now. Previous dislike has now changed to one of the strongest bonds I know in my limited experiences. Even the grey badge are in JC. & juniors are now playing in Bdiv. Hah, we used to have all the time in the world.

Had art exam with Bairavie just now, and while I was printing my lino, it suddenly struck me how different I am from the person I was. & for a second there, I felt just like I did when I first entered the school, on that first day when everything's still fresh and so new, you have this wierd feeling like you're floating on air - it's such a foreign environment, you know you don't fit in.

I always say how I hate change. & I've never really learnt how to deal with it. But I suppose I've always known that if it did happen, there'd be nothing I could do. Maybe tomorrow global warming will become a full-fledged disaster. Maybe on Tuesday someone'll figure out how to contain a fusion reaction. (walau, too much physics alr) Like it or not, Change Will Happen. It already has. & to some extent, I suppose we're all just waiting for it.

(& who am I to complain anyway. I'm always the one leaving in the first place, how can I blame others for doing the same? I'm always the one causing the changes, how can I complain when changes happen to me?)

To the ghosts who read this space enough to care (anonymously or not), I'm fine. Always have been; always will be. Time doesn't wait, so no matter whether we think we can or not, we all have to find a way to cope with things, just so we don't get left too far behind.

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